note to self

I’m not used to things going well. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.

“It was a fun night, but I just have some hesitation about going any further right now.”

i expect something like that, from either one of us

It’ll probably end up as just a good time, right?

how do i keep something like this going? can I?

how do i get to know her and make sure it’s really her i’m interested in and not just it?

am i enthusiastic enough? good enough?

i’ve been with people just for the physical side. i’ve never stayed with someone just for that.